Crazy old fool

Sitting in the parking lot, halfway to Hamilton, I’ve pulled in to my regular pit stop to catch a moment of peace. The weekend ahead is going to be hard. It’s one I’ve dreaded for a long time but the time has finally come and I’m not even sure I’m ready. My Grandfather passed away just as we were sent into lockdown during the current Covid 19 events here in New Zealand. ...

Read More

Holy Empowerment Batman!

OH! You are going to hear me now! I don’t know what specifically was the turning point most recently but, oh my, have I found it. That thing I thought I had all along but it wasn’t quite there. Just not quite… loud enough. True enough. I love writing and love that I have this outlet and place to share. I didn’t share a post last week and, when asked by my life ...

Read More

I’m my own Superhero

Hi, I’m Sarah, and I’m your regular 'plain Jane'. All my life, I’ve been as average as they come. Average in clothing and shoe size, always 3rd in competitions at school and sports, and average at school, too. My grades were never amazing. Heck, even my name is as plain and as average as it can get: Sarah Smith. When I decided it was time to become my own superhero and step ...

Read More

You

You look at me as though I have all the answers. Like I’m some kind of saviour here to fix all of your problems. You look at me with eyes of despair that tear me up inside because I cannot read your mind, but I can feel the pain in your eyes. You tell me I don’t say the right things. You tell me I don’t know what I’m talking about and ...

Read More

Most people said I was crazy

If anyone is wanting a challenge with breath-taking views (quite literally! The forceful nature of the wind when it hits your face in just the wrong angle in some parts will literally take your breath away!) I fully recommend the Tongariro Alpine Crossing. After coming out of emergency abdominal surgery to remove my gallbladder just 2 months earlier and having not really gotten back into physical activity until 2-3 weeks prior ...

Read More

When you aren’t enough

The moment I locked eyes on him, I knew. I knew I would do everything in my power to give him the best of me and nothing was going to stop me. When Tatum made me a Mumma something in me clicked, a love I could never have described before experiencing it. He was everything and all the pain and exhaustion from the past few days faded as I marvelled ...

Read More

When It’s Time to Let Go

                     Photo by Hanny Naibaho on Unsplash Not sure what I’ve done right lately, but it feels like my boogie men are starting to disappear. I used to be so afraid of so many people… Somehow they look less scary, from this new perspective. I saw something online the other day that read: “People aren’t ignoring you they’re busy living their lives and the best way for you to get over ...

Read More

What Marriage Didn’t Do For Me

"What a treacherous thing, to believe that a person is more than a person" -John Green, Paper Towns I had reserved part of my brain for believing in fairy tales... I believed that marriage was suddenly going to take this girl with a lifetime of self esteem issues and make her confident and effortlessly happy. Truth is - a ring didn't make me a better person Truth is - I still have my own issues Truth ...

Read More
Personal Office

I Quit My Job to Live My Life

I had a job. It was an ok job, As far as jobs go. I made decent money. It was near my house. No one hit me, yelled at me or spat at me. What more could I ask for?! I could ask for just one more thing. A life which I didn’t dread 90% of. I could ask for anything but this place, This job, this lifestyle, Because it was killing me. You’ll think I mean figuratively, But I mean that ...

Read More